DeepSummary
Steve Fishman, a journalist, is revisiting his encounter with the daughter of serial killer Robert Carr from when she was 12 years old. Now around 60, Donna recounts her childhood experiences growing up with her murderous father, including fond memories of family camping trips that were juxtaposed with his violent outbursts and constant moving. Despite knowing about his crimes by age 12, Donna still loved her father at the time and wrote him 'Dear Daddy' letters in prison.
However, when Donna was 17, her father sent her disturbing letters describing how he planned to rape her after seeing her photo as a young woman. This caused Donna to cut off all contact. She has spent a lifetime trying to understand her father's motivations and shake free from his legacy. Steve and Donna sort through her father's archives, including letters and documents, allowing Donna to reflect on her complicated feelings towards him.
The episode explores the complex dynamics of Donna's relationship with her serial killer father - the love she felt as a child contrasted with the horrors of his actions and the ultimate violation when he sexualized her as a young adult. It delves into the lingering trauma and Donna's efforts to find closure.
Key Episodes Takeaways
- Donna experienced a complicated childhood with a mix of loving family memories and traumatic violence from her serial killer father Robert Carr.
- Despite knowing about his murders from age 12, Donna still loved her father at the time and wrote him affectionate 'Dear Daddy' letters in prison.
- When Donna was 17, her father sent her disturbing letters describing plans to rape her, causing her to completely cut off contact.
- Donna has spent her life trying to understand her father's motivations and shake free from his monstrous legacy.
- The episode explores the complex dichotomy of Donna feeling love for her violent father during childhood.
- Sifting through her father's archives allows Donna to reflect on her feelings and continuing trauma from his actions.
- The violation of her father's sexualized letters as a teen was a breaking point that made Donna sever ties with him.
- Donna's story highlights the lasting impact of familial trauma and the challenges of reconciling love with evil.
Top Episodes Quotes
- “He was my father. And as a little girl, I truly did love my father.“ by Donna
- “And opening that and reading even the first few sentences was jaw dropping. Exactly what he was going to do to me. He was going to rape me.“ by Donna
- “I can still hear my father's voice in my head.“ by Donna
- “Donna has spent a lifetime trying to understand her father and to shake free of him.“ by Steve Fishman
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Smoke Screen: My Friend, the Serial Killer
Sony Music Entertainment
7/1/24